Reflection

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

"And O my people! Ask forgiveness of your Lord, and turn to Him (in repentance): He will send you the skies pouring abundant rain, and add strength to your strength: so turn ye not back in sin!" 

the past week had been quite challenging for me, mentally and emotionally. i have yet to get used to the tight schedules, enormous influx of information, thick textbooks, studious weekends, and various assignments. Ya Allah...at one point i feel as if my life was replete with misery (and it was just the first week of the semester) but i somehow coaxed myself, that everything will get better as the semester moves along, insyaAllah. i dont have a reason to despair because Allah is Always There. He knows how i feel and He understands..He wouldnt burden me with something that He knew i couldnt bear..La yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus 'a ha...InsyaAllah. So, positive thoughts, thiqatan billah....ya ukhti!! 

when comes a time when you are being tested with something, i realised how important it is to relate everything back to Allah Taala. NOthing that happened in our lives is without His knowledge. Everything was arranged by Him and will fall into its rightful place when the time comes. Allah is indeed the best teacher in coaching us coursing through our lives. Every single event has its tazkirah, if only we just take a couple of seconds to ponder. When you see through the happenings of your life in context of this, you will find that you are more collected, calm and accepting.

i think i know why i was not feeling positive about life in the last couple of weeks. i did not take the time to think over, to ponder and to appreciate the essence, of what this new transition offered me. i was so into getting to know my new coursemates, catch up with lectures, reading the assigned pages of textbooks, digging into cadavers...that i did not give myself the time to have a reflection of what i had gone through. that made me feel so...wrong. and i knew something was missing.. so when i did not achieve what i planned, i felt downright frustrated. Astaghfirullahalazim..

But Alhamdulillah, things are turning out well now. InsyaAllah i could survive this rain =)

Wallahu a'alam...