Confession

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, Peace and Blessings be upon him and his household

Dear Heart,

I have not been keeping in touch with you for some time...

I have to admit that..

Listen..

I'm sorry, sincerely and with pure remorse..

I'm not sure what has gotten into me..

You made me promise that I would care for you..

Feed you, love you, protect you..

You made me promise to fight to defend you..

From enemies and foes..

They never stop attempting to deceive me..

I was determined, not to let my guard down! (At first..)

But you know what?

Weariness engulfed me, tiredness took control of me..

Suddenly I just felt so...

Hopeless

Meaningless..

I just felt so..lost..

So I just let time pass me by..

I'd rather be in the shade than work under the scorching hot sun..

Enjoy the leisure..

Eating sweet grapes and later drain my throat with cold water..

Feeling of freedom only comes once in a while..

Lalala....

Wait a minute..

This scenario..

It somehow feels familiar, I read it somewhere I'm sure..

Oh yes! It's the story of Kaab bin Malik!

Recounted by Allah SWT Himself in the Book!

What happened to him?

Kaab bin Malik was a mockery among the Muslims at that time..

For his reluctance in merging with the saff of the mujahideen..

The willingness to fight for Islam just slipped away from him..

Replaced by sweet content..

He'd rather be in the shade than march under the scorching hot sun..

Enjoy the leisure..

Eating sweet grapes and later drain his throat with cold water..

Afterall..

Feeling of freedom only comes once in a while..

"Don't  take after Kaab bin Malik..He was a lesson to the Muslims,

To not be deceived by the contentment of the Dunya...

His tale was commemorated in the Quran for a reason,"

A sister told in a daurah..

"Kaab was later isolated by the Muslims and Rasulullah himself.

During the agonizing period of isolation,

Kaab was remorseful and desperate for acceptance..

But, Allah wasn't called ar-Rahman, ar-Rahim without a reason.

Kaab was granted forgiveness eventually

And he learnt his lesson..

Which is: Never let your nafs cloud your main purpose in life. 

Life is a battle.

You know it is, if a life do MEAN sth to you.."

Dear Allah, 

Help us stand firm on the rightful path..

Help us withstand any obstacles that you sent in our ways..

And You are not called ar-Rahman, ar-Rahim without a reason...

Please..

Help us to be istiqamah in this life..