Cintaku...

Cintaku tak berdusta...
Tak mengenal ingkar...
Tak kenal nestapa...
Cintaku hanya indah..
Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya...

Apa yg kurasakan ini....
Persembahan untuk diriMu...
Kau dengarkan kasihku...

MencintaiMu tak mengenal waktu...
Tak mengenal puitis...
Hanya tulusnya hati...
MencintaiMu tak mengenal ragu...
Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk diriMu
Selalu....

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Now ,then and forever =)

Reflection

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

"And O my people! Ask forgiveness of your Lord, and turn to Him (in repentance): He will send you the skies pouring abundant rain, and add strength to your strength: so turn ye not back in sin!" 

the past week had been quite challenging for me, mentally and emotionally. i have yet to get used to the tight schedules, enormous influx of information, thick textbooks, studious weekends, and various assignments. Ya Allah...at one point i feel as if my life was replete with misery (and it was just the first week of the semester) but i somehow coaxed myself, that everything will get better as the semester moves along, insyaAllah. i dont have a reason to despair because Allah is Always There. He knows how i feel and He understands..He wouldnt burden me with something that He knew i couldnt bear..La yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus 'a ha...InsyaAllah. So, positive thoughts, thiqatan billah....ya ukhti!! 

when comes a time when you are being tested with something, i realised how important it is to relate everything back to Allah Taala. NOthing that happened in our lives is without His knowledge. Everything was arranged by Him and will fall into its rightful place when the time comes. Allah is indeed the best teacher in coaching us coursing through our lives. Every single event has its tazkirah, if only we just take a couple of seconds to ponder. When you see through the happenings of your life in context of this, you will find that you are more collected, calm and accepting.

i think i know why i was not feeling positive about life in the last couple of weeks. i did not take the time to think over, to ponder and to appreciate the essence, of what this new transition offered me. i was so into getting to know my new coursemates, catch up with lectures, reading the assigned pages of textbooks, digging into cadavers...that i did not give myself the time to have a reflection of what i had gone through. that made me feel so...wrong. and i knew something was missing.. so when i did not achieve what i planned, i felt downright frustrated. Astaghfirullahalazim..

But Alhamdulillah, things are turning out well now. InsyaAllah i could survive this rain =)

Wallahu a'alam...

Abdullah bin Jahasy

BIsmillahirrahmanirrahim...

Updates: this week is the commencing of my 2nd year of med school in UoA. so far it had been a fantastic week, Alhamdulillah..=) coursemates were great, they were friendly and tremendously helpful, MasyaAllah..yesterday i had my first cadaver lab. one word to describe it: Subhanallah. i did feel at one moment as if i was floating on air and my thoughts all cloudy, somehow an enervating atmosphere. maybe because of the pungent smell within the lab. but all in all, it was an experience that i will never forget, Subhanallah...=)

last night as i was browsing blogs, i came across an article about Abdullah bin Jahasy. Abdullah bin Jahasy was among the earliest people to submit to Islam. he was also a relative to our beloved Prophet SAW, namely a cousin. his best features are being virtuous and patient. other than that, he was also among the first ones to partake in Hijrah from Makkah to Madinah, leaving behind enormous wealth and dearly-loved hometown.

after embarking the Hijrah, rumours disseminated that the house of Bani Jahasy was being violently ripped apart by the Quraisy people. upon hearing this, gloom and grief engulfed Abdullah bin Jahasy, He went to see the Prophet SAW to relate his sorrows. 

" Are you doubtful of Allah's promise of presenting you a better house in Jannah?" Rasulullah asked. 

"Indeed, i did not, Ya Rasulullah," Abdullah responded. 

"Indeed you will get it," replied Rasulullah. And Abdullah was cheered by this response.

what i can decipher from this short event is, even Abdullah bin Jahasy, a great companion of Rasulullah could be emotionally disturbed when tested with such misfortune. He did not kept his feelings to himself, but he went to see Rasulullah to pour out his feelings. Rasulullah could have turned him away for wanting to discuss such insignificant matter, but he did not. He showed pity to Abdullah and gave him words of encouragement, which gave solace to his heart, MasyaAllah.

So what i learnt is that, it is okay to tell others how you feel, no matter how small it is. sometimes we need each other to remind and advise us of what is right. it may be irrelevant and petty, but it could relieve our mind a great deal to get rid off that petty matter. and as a friend who is being approached, please be considerate and have empathy towards your friend. take Rasulullah as your role model. insyaAllah, things will get clearer afterwards and you can focus on what is important in your life..=)

Wallahu a'alam.