Me? Dakwah?

During the last usrah, i brought up sth that i really want to clarify with myself and maybe others who has the same thinking as well. "Am I eligible to be a pendakwah(sb who reminds others to do good and leave sinful doings)?" this question always pops up. Realising the sins that i have commited before and the sinful doings which i can't get rid of until now, i felt really really inferior. Like for instance, i am writing this blog, telling others about Islam and way of life, but it feels like i am not the right and eligible person to execute this such duty. So, something is holding me back.

We all have this stereotyped perception that a pendakwah should be entirely pious, and if it's a woman then she should be covering her aurat fully and stuff like that. But if she's not, and she's trying to tell you right from wrong in Islam, you'll be like," Hey, why don't you look at yourself in the mirror first before you come and advising me on Islam?" I don't deny that it is true that we have to correct ourselves first before others. My point here is, nobody is perfect. Allah meant for it to be that way. That is why we have to remind each other, according to my naqibah. Sometimes we see thinngs differently from others, so if sb tells you that she thinks what you are doing is wrong, the rightful response would be to think over that matter and if it is wrong, and you just realised it, you should be greatful. Because that person just saved you from committing sins. The usual reactions to this kind of situation is we try to look for the other person's fault to 'counter the attack'. If everyone has this kind of thinking, we are not moving forward in our thinking at all.

In addition, that person who gives 'dakwah' will have to analyze herself too. "walk the talk" they always say. This is our responsibility as a Muslim. We are all pendakwah. Allah said so that we are all caliphs on Earth. When Allah gave you ' a spoon of honey' and you've tasted the sweetness, what's wrong with sharing with others how it tasted like? SO that they too would want to taste it.

I personally think i can be a pendakwah, because when i 'talk the talk', indirectly i'm driving myself towards achieving what i preach(cewah..hehe..) in fact, i'll be more pressured to do what i told others because i want to protect the image of my religion (not because of sb would badtalk abt me or sth like that) in short, i want to portray the image that Muslims, meant waht they say and we definitlely "walk the talk, not simply talk the talk"!!