I just.. can't

Placing my hands on the keyboard...

Looking far out the window...

Trying to ignore the noise coming from a concert down the apartment...

Trying to put my feelings into words..

Trying..

Ok, here goes..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..In the name of Allah the Most Gracious, Most Merciful..Peace and blessings to the beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW and the ahlul bait..

And whoever desires the Hereafter and strives for it, with the necessary effort due for it (i.e. do righteous deeds of Allah's Obedience) while he is a believer (in the Oneness of Allah Islamic Monotheism), then such are the ones whose striving shall be appreciated, thanked and rewarded (by Allah).  (al-Isra':19)

Ya Allah, please don't test me with an obstacle that i can't overcome..

Placing my hands on the keyboard...

Looking far out the window...

Trying to ignore the noise coming from a concert down the apartment...

Trying to put my feelings into words..

Trying.. 

I just.....can't..Ya Allah..

Confession

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, Peace and Blessings be upon him and his household

Dear Heart,

I have not been keeping in touch with you for some time...

I have to admit that..

Listen..

I'm sorry, sincerely and with pure remorse..

I'm not sure what has gotten into me..

You made me promise that I would care for you..

Feed you, love you, protect you..

You made me promise to fight to defend you..

From enemies and foes..

They never stop attempting to deceive me..

I was determined, not to let my guard down! (At first..)

But you know what?

Weariness engulfed me, tiredness took control of me..

Suddenly I just felt so...

Hopeless

Meaningless..

I just felt so..lost..

So I just let time pass me by..

I'd rather be in the shade than work under the scorching hot sun..

Enjoy the leisure..

Eating sweet grapes and later drain my throat with cold water..

Feeling of freedom only comes once in a while..

Lalala....

Wait a minute..

This scenario..

It somehow feels familiar, I read it somewhere I'm sure..

Oh yes! It's the story of Kaab bin Malik!

Recounted by Allah SWT Himself in the Book!

What happened to him?

Kaab bin Malik was a mockery among the Muslims at that time..

For his reluctance in merging with the saff of the mujahideen..

The willingness to fight for Islam just slipped away from him..

Replaced by sweet content..

He'd rather be in the shade than march under the scorching hot sun..

Enjoy the leisure..

Eating sweet grapes and later drain his throat with cold water..

Afterall..

Feeling of freedom only comes once in a while..

"Don't  take after Kaab bin Malik..He was a lesson to the Muslims,

To not be deceived by the contentment of the Dunya...

His tale was commemorated in the Quran for a reason,"

A sister told in a daurah..

"Kaab was later isolated by the Muslims and Rasulullah himself.

During the agonizing period of isolation,

Kaab was remorseful and desperate for acceptance..

But, Allah wasn't called ar-Rahman, ar-Rahim without a reason.

Kaab was granted forgiveness eventually

And he learnt his lesson..

Which is: Never let your nafs cloud your main purpose in life. 

Life is a battle.

You know it is, if a life do MEAN sth to you.."

Dear Allah, 

Help us stand firm on the rightful path..

Help us withstand any obstacles that you sent in our ways..

And You are not called ar-Rahman, ar-Rahim without a reason...

Please..

Help us to be istiqamah in this life..

Comfort Zone

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, Peace and Blessings be upon him and his household

Updates: Salam everyone. May Allah bless us with contentment with this Deen, at this very moment insyaAllah. It has been a month since i came back to Malaysia for summer break, Alhamdulillah. It feels good to be back again, indeed it's a gift. It's a gift to be among beloved friends and family, and it is also a test of how far you could sustain your iman, now that you are in that 'comfortable' zone. It's tough. No pressure, no exams, no assignments, just the right time to be relaxed. 

But, for those who value the worth of time, it is no halt for pursuit of knowledge. There are so many things about the Deen that we are obscured of. The pertinence of pursuing knowledge of the Deen, at this very era is essential. We are the chains that link the previous generation to the next. We have that obligation to unfold and undo the misconceptions about Islam to the coming generations, so that they are in knowledge of their blessed Deen, insyaAllah. This reminder is especially for me and you, insyaAllah. May Allah guide us to the rightful path (1:6)

Reading the newspaper these days is not as pleasant. Almost at every pages, we are displayed with an image of a morally corrupted and a callous society. A special attention is needed towards the quality of the youths today. There is an obvious decadence among our youths. Who is to be blamed? Gone are the youths who think of others before themselves, who respect the elderly, who help the poor and weak, who strive for success in Dunya and Akhirah..The responsibility of amending this situation lies on every person within the society. I think everyone should be held accountable for the bad turnouts of the youths today.The solution of all social ills, always remain with Islam.

When realising that the environment surrounding us is not of a conducive environment(biah) to be able to fully execute your daily practices and mutabaah, there is a need to renew our intentions every now and then. There is also a serious need to do zikr whenever possible. For Allah reminded us in the Quran, that He encourages us to find ways or means (wasilah), in order to enrich our souls with the remembrance of Allah (al-Maidah:35), (ar-Ra'd:28).

I have to be honest, to suggest is much easier than to enact. :(  A sister once asked me, quite innocently, "Until when do we have to mujahadah..? Is there an end to this?" I looked down, not knowing how to reply.I can't really answer a query that only you yourself could answer. Tepuk dada, tanya iman.

As a conclusion, it dawned on me that, it all comes down to you and your effort at the end of the day. You are the pilot of your own life. It was depicted that in Surah as-Shams, that Allah presented to us, two 'paths' to follow. The path to corruption, or purification. The choice is ours to make, and Allah had already foretold, the consequences of respective choices. Wallahu a'alam. 

Surah as-Shams:

8. Then He showed him what is wrong for him and what is right for him;
9. Indeed he succeeds who purifies his ownself (i.e. obeys and performs all that Allah ordered, by following the true Faith of Islamic Monotheism and by doing righteous good deeds).
10. And indeed he fails who corrupts his ownself (i.e. disobeys what Allah has ordered by rejecting the true Faith of Islamic Monotheism or by following polytheism, etc. or by doing every kind of evil wicked deeds).

Do you trust Him?

In The Name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, peace and blesssings be upon him and his Household (Ahlul Bayt)

Updates: Assalamualaikum. kaif haluk? it is the busiest time of the semester, assignments cropping up, with just four weeks away from finals. the right time to quickly recharge, spiritually and mentally..InsyaAllah. For the ultimate panacea for all ills and weariness, (for true believers) is contained within the words of Allah, that is the Quran.

O mankind! There has come to you a good advice from your Lord (i.e. the Qur'an, ordering all that is good and forbidding all that is evil), and a healing for that (disease of ignorance, doubt, hypocrisy and differences, etc.) in your breasts, - a guidance and a mercy (explaining lawful and unlawful things, etc.) for the believers. (Yunus:57) 

".... Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest" (ar-Ra'd:28)

In pursuing our interests in this dunya, dear brothers and sisters, never forget that we will eventually return to Allah. This life is short. So the discomforts that you are tested with, is only temporary. If you are true in wanting to attain Allah's pleasure, who knows it better than Allah? We are all being tested according to our respective capabilities. InsyaAllah, He knows best.

Narrated from Aishah r.a.: "No calamity befalls a Muslim but that Allah expiates some of his sins because of it, even though it were the prick he receives from a thorn," (Sahih Bukhari)

May Allah made us among the people who attain success, both in the world and hereafter, insyaAllah!

From Surah al-Qasas:

 7. And We inspired the mother of Musa (Moses), (saying): "Suckle him [Musa (Moses)], but when you fear for him, then cast him into the river and fear not, nor grieve. Verily! We shall bring him back to you, and shall make him one of (Our) Messengers."

8. Then the household of Fir'aun (Pharaoh) picked him up, that he might become for them an enemy and a (cause of) grief. Verily! Fir'aun (Pharaoh), Haman and their hosts were sinners.

9. And the wife of Fir'aun (Pharaoh) said: "A comfort of the eye for me and for you. Kill him not, perhaps he may be of benefit to us, or we may adopt him as a son." And they perceive not (the result of that).

10. And the heart of the mother of Musa (Moses) became empty [from every thought, except the thought of Musa (Moses)]. She was very near to disclose his (case, i.e. the child is her son), had We not strengthened her heart (with Faith), so that she might remain as one of the believers.

11. And she said to his [Musa's (Moses)] sister: "Follow him." So she (his sister) watched him from a far place secretly, while they perceived not.

12. And We had already forbidden (other) foster suckling mothers for him, until she (his sister came up and) said: "Shall I direct you to a household who will rear him for you, and sincerely they will look after him in a good manner?"

13. So did We restore him to his mother, that she might be delighted, and that she might not grieve, and that she might know that the Promise of Allah is true. But most of them know not.

The Quran is indeed a form of blessing and mercy to mankind. No matter how many times we read it, there is always something new to be learnt from it..MasyaAllah. I used to read the translations of the Quran really fast, without taking the time to decipher the underlying meanings of them =(. Well, if you are reading through a medical prescription specifically written for you, you wouldn't rush through it without understanding it, would you? You would want to take some time reading and maybe do some googling of the medications prescribed. Because health is something dear to you =) The Quran is like a prescription by Allah to cure all kinds of ills, mostly related to the soul. If iman is something dear to you, you would want to preserve it according to what is recommended in the Quran al-Karim, insyaAllah.


I was reading over the translation above, of Surah al-Qasas, verse 7 to 13, and I wanted to share a few thoughts of how these verses relate to my current situation, insyaAllah. The verses above recount to us of the story of Musa a.s, of how his mother decided to send him adrift in the river, to save him from being killed by the Pharaoh at that time. All male babies were commanded to be killed, for selfish reasons of the Pharaoh. The river drifted Musa a.s towards the palace of the Pharaoh, and his wife found the baby. This all happened by Allah's will, and He is indeed the Best Planner. 

Musa's mother knew this and she feared the worst, knowing that her baby was in the hands of the Pharaoh's wife! They could do anything to him. Note Allah related a short happening of how the mother of Musa a.s, nearly disclosed that Musa was indeed her son, when she hardly could contain her fear of what could happen to Musa a.s. In short, her tawakkal towards Allah was being tested.  And she could have given way, if she was not strengthened by her faith. In verse 13, as a result of her being patient and firm, by Allah's willing, she was returned her son.

There is a significant lesson to be learnt in this short event. a simple event but an important message, insyaAllah. It is pertaining tawakkal (reliance) upon Allah, in whatever that we do. When we rely upon Allah, it means that we are surrendering our fate wholeheartedly to Allah (that is, after you've done your best in that particular situation).

It is pertinent that we be patient and have positive thoughts of Allah. He promised in the Quran that He will never put a trial too hard on us. (al-Baqarah:286)  It is the principle of tawakkal (acceptance) that complements one's iman, insyaAllah (al-Anfal:2). When Allah tests us with a trial, He will look upon our reactions. If we are patient in facing the trials, He promised us many great returns, insyaAllah. (al-Mukminun: 111)

Humans are not perfect beings. We were created imperfect and flawed. It is with the help and assistance of Allah that we made it throughout life. In work, studies, job interviews, anything. (Luqman: 22) Even in the pursuit of fortifying our iman, it is never relied on our efforts alone. =)

My trials may be different from yours, but I believe that we are being tested in accordance to our abilities and strengths, insyaAllah. Just be strong, and know your grounds and always know the prime intentions of your actions. If  you've got a pure intention, insyaAllah..He will eventually reward you, through ways that you couldnt even think of =) (at-Talaq:3)

Say: "O 'Ibadi (My slaves) who have transgressed against themselves (by committing evil deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah, verily Allah forgives all sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. (az-Zumar:53)

 Wallahu a'alam

Summer Pit Stop!!

Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters,

This summer, AUSIS (Australian and New Zealand Students' Islamic Society) brings you The Summer Pit Stop!!

The details are as shown. 

If interested, please contact the numbers above. 

Let's fill this summer with activities that could fortify our iman from our nafs, insyaAllah..

May Allah make our effort of enriching our souls, worthy for the Akhirah insyaAllah...

Brothers and Sisters, 

Let us be the people of taqwa who bear the religion with pride insyaAllah..

The destiny of this ummah lies with its youth..masyaAllah..

"March forth, whether you are light (being healthy, young and wealthy) or heavy (being ill, old and poor), strive hard with your wealth and your lives in the Cause of Allah. This is better for you, if you but knew" (at-Tawbah:41)

Sayonara Jahiliyah

In The Name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, peace and blesssings be upon him and his Household (Ahlul Bayt)

Updates: Salam everyone. Kaif haluk? Hopefully everyone is in the best health and most importantly the best of iman insyaAllah. It is the second week of the second semester. the subjects are getting more baffling and perplexing, not surprising. But after the first semester i found myself more collected, Alhamdulillah. (93:4) I passed my subjects in the first sem and InsyaAllah i can do it again.

oh yeah, ramadhan is finally coming! couldn't be any more happier =) Ahlan wasahlan ya ramadhan! May this holy month be a meaningful one, as in we satiate ourselves with ibadah that could elevate ourselves in His Sight, InsyaAllah (qiam, tarawih, reciting quran, supplication, etc). Equipping ourselves with these strengths, may it fortify us from our nafs and jahiliyah, insyaAllah..=D

Humans are weak beings. we have desires and wants, and sometimes all we want to do is indulge and spoil ourselves rotten. most of the time, these 'things' that we like is not in favor of Allah. Examples: spending too much time on fb, wasting time, bad talk others, wasting money on irrelevant things, maksiat, etc. These, to be blatant, are jahiliyah. I am referring to myself, especially. It feels so pathetic and pitiful to be enslaved by all these worldly things (couldn't be any more truthful to myself). When you actually know that they don't really benefit you in world or Hereafter. Astaghfirullah...

Say (O Muhammad ): "Shall We tell you the greatest losers in respect of (their) deeds?

"Those whose efforts have been wasted in this life while they thought that they were acquiring good by their deeds!" (al-Kahf:103-104)

Whatever is with you, will be exhausted, and whatever with Allah (of good deeds) will remain. And those who are patient, We will certainly pay them a reward in proportion to the best of what they used to do (an-Nahl:96)

whatever that is worldly, will perish. And what is favourable in Allah's sight will remain. therefore, it is incumbent to expend our time and energy for things that will be of pertinence to us in the Hereafter, that is: our ibadah and others that bring pleasure to Allah. 

Allah had generously mentioned in the Quran, of ways to enrich our souls:

Verily, the rising by night (for Tahajjud prayer) is very hard and most potent and good for governing (the soul), and most suitable for (understanding) the Word (of Allah). (al-Muzammil:6)

Indeed whosoever purifies himself (by avoiding polytheism and accepting Islamic Monotheism) shall achieve success,

And remembers (glorifies) the Name of his Lord (worships none but Allah), and prays (five compulsory prayers and Nawafil additional prayers). (al-A'la:14-15)

And your Lord said: "Invoke Me, [i.e. believe in My Oneness (Islamic Monotheism)] (and ask Me for anything) I will respond to your (invocation). Verily! Those who scorn My worship [i.e. do not invoke Me, and do not believe in My Oneness, (Islamic Monotheism)] they will surely enter Hell in humiliation!"(al-Mu'min:60)

Whatever that you perform in the name of Allah, is for your own good really. It is for your own purification and goodness, insyaAllah. For He said:

And whosoever strives, he strives only for himself. Verily, Allah is free of all wants from the 'Alamin (mankind, jinns, and all that exists). (al-Ankabut:6)

Whosoever does righteous good deed it is for (the benefit of) his ownself, and whosoever does evil, it is against his ownself, and your Lord is not at all unjust to (His) slaves. (al-Fussilat:46)

If you feel you don't have the inner strength to be istiqamah in your ibadah, there is always Allah to guide you. With sincerity, invoke His Help and pray for His Guidance. InsyaAllah, He will be more than willing to quench your needs.

And if an evil whisper from Shaitan (Satan) tries to turn you away (O Muhammad ) (from doing good, etc.), then seek refuge in Allah. Verily, He is the All-Hearer, the All-Knower.(Fussilat:36)

O mankind! it is you who stand in need of Allah, but Allah is Rich (Free of all wants and needs), Worthy of all praise.(Fatir:15)

May Allah bless us with the best of iman, may He accept our repentances, may He accept our deeds, insyaAllah. 

May He guide us away from our jahiliyah and whatever that led us astray.

Sayonara Jahiliyah.


InsyaAllah..

Stop. And look back.

In The Name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, peace and blesssings be upon him and his Household (Ahlul Bayt)

 

 

And surely, We shall try you till We test those who strive hard (for the Cause of Allah) and the patient ones, and We shall test your facts (i.e. the one who is a liar, and the one who is truthful).(47:31)

Updates: Salam everyone. Kaif haluk? Hopefully everyone is in the best of health and most importantly the best of iman. I finished my exam just last night, Alhamdulillah.. now that there's free time, i've GOT to plan wisely. there should be things to accomplish. some good and beneficial stuffs to look forward to..insyaAllah. the exams were alright insyaAllah. I have to admit feeling anxious of the results. Nevertheless, Allah is the Best Planner and I trust Him to determine what is to become of my life insyaAllah. Astaghfirullahalazim..And aseef (sorry) for leaving this blog for quite some time. Had been very busy with studies =(

after coursing through my first semester in Bachelor of Medicine/Surgery, being fed profusely with awfully complex and intricate knowledge of the human body, i came to a conclusion. humans are ungrateful and ignorant. they take things in life for granted and they complain a lot too. WE are ignorant for always forgetting that everything that we own is not truly OURS. we are created by A Great Creator, who is also Most Giving, and Most Forgiving.

O man! What has made you careless concerning your Lord, the Most Generous? (82:6)

Who created you, fashioned you perfectly, and gave you due proportion;(82:7)

It is sufficent to just observe ourselves. Have you ever wonder how your fingers could precisely apply the right force, for you to move something? To grip or reach something? To turn a page of a book perhaps? Have you ever wonder what the hand is consisted of? The nerves and vessels that supply the interwoven muscles in the hand? After knowing these complexities, i come to appreciate the littlest things. like how my fingernails are stuck to the end of each fingers. now that, is just what is visible to the eye. Subhanallah!

i learnt to appreciate and to take things easy as they go. i learnt that being impulsive is bad. setting unrealistic goals is frustrating. being judgemental is unfair. being sensible is a must. lending a hand is obligatory. time should be managed more efficiently. set my priorities right. health is to be catered for, always. and most importantly, toughening my reliance and trust on Allah Taala. now you can see how badly i need to brush up on my 10 Muwasaffat Tarbiyyah..huhu insyaAllah.

Studying Medicine, here in Auckland, in my perspective is not just about gaining knowledge, meeting people of different cultures, and definitely not just about seeing and visiting places. that is just what's on the surface. the relations, of these to the Creator is too immense. Too great, MasyaAllah i am awed. the experiences that tagged along my journey would forever be treasured. For I believe everything, from the new friendships that i made, to the exam questions that i answered has its relation to what Allah has fated for me to receive, insyaAllah...=)

So far so good. Alhamdulillah. I can only feel so, whenever i stop. And look back. 

Then only I see, how Allah is So Great at determining the course of my life. How can i not, when He was the one who created me, who knows me, and fix the fingernails to the end of my fingers...

Wallahu a'alam..