Doctors are Human Too

 

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

I love Greys Anatomy series. I love it because they teach me so much abt being human. Making mistakes, encountering problems, colleague disputes, emergencies etc. Most doctors will be hard on themselves because this profession demands perfection. It deals with human lives and human errors are bound to happen. But doctors are not robots. We are humans and sometimes we forget / err.

I forgot to document a discussion regarding DNR (Do not resuscitate)

And it was purely forgetfulness. I went back home and I just realised it at 10pm as I am getting ready to sleep. I rushed back to the hospital and I quickly go to the ward. Only to know that the specialist had done night rounds and saw my incomplete entry. And she snapped a picture of that entry, I am guessing to show in the mo group how slacking this entry is.

It was an unfortunate event. But it had happened. It occurred while I was very occupied. It just did. And I admit it was my mistake. My forgetfulness. I own up to my mistake and I am ready to face the music tomorrow should I be called upon.

Oh Allah... I hope that You make this easy for me.. Every trial and tribulation is a blessing in disguise.. I hope it will turn out fine. InsyaAllah. So far You had helped me through many tough conditions.. And I was never grateful.. I know that sometimes You have to send down a reminder to budge me that I am only a servant of Allah.. I need Allah to protect me.. I need Allah to remind me..

I hope I can be redha.. InsyaAllah

 

Stay Positive Baz

 It's normal to be scolded. It's OK. Although it's a stab to your pride, but it actually teaches you something. Better be scolded than you accidentally kill a patient..

So stay positive OK.. InsyaAllah things will get brighter.. 

Trust nobody

This is my first post as a medical officer. This blog will only gets a post whenever I have a significant event in my life that I need to pen out hahaha.

So I hurt a colleague's feelings. I said something which I should not have said to someone (A) about the colleague and that A had passed on what I said to that colleague. I got to know from another person that, that colleague is hurt by my words.

I felt bad. I confronted A and asked what did she said to that colleague. I explained that I did not mean to hurt anyone's feelings and I said sorry. And I asked A to clarify again with that colleague that I was not in context of hurting or criticising anyone.

I also texted the colleague and apologised. She said OK and she doesn't have any hard feelings.

The moral of the story:

1. Never trust anyone. You don't know who can be a backstabber

2. Don't bad talk. Just don't. It's also sinful

3. If you hurt someone just own up your mistake and say sorry and make amends.

4. Things you hear from your friend is unnecessarily true. They usually add some unnecessary spices so that you feel bad/make things worse than they are.

5. If you have done your part ie say sorry and try to make amends, move on from that guilt feeling already. Don't let the guilt ruin your day.

6. Pray to Allah that the person you hurt forgive you.

I also realised from this event how great the impact of an affected relationship to me as a person. I just feel so bad and I could not move on until the colleague responded to my apologies. I am not sure if this is the case with other ppl.

But anyhow I am greatful that things have resolved. Alhamdulillah.. 

Mistakes

Everytime I am working nights I will pray that I have a smooth night without any mistakes or pitfalls. I pray to Allah and I will ask my parents to pray for me as well.. Somethings are bound to happen because Allah has fated it to happen.. I made a drug error.. The drug I diluted is 3 times stronger than it should be through epidural.. And the med has been administered to patient and luckily enough it was detected in time.. They have delayed LL neuro recovery..

Alhamdulillah nothing serious happened to the patient but it can have serious complications like seizures..

I have to meet the anesthesia hod, who asked me for my explanation. I own up to my mistake.. I only read that its the right drug but I missed out the concentration.. Ya Allah.. I feel really bad and ashamed as well..

I am reflecting on what happened. I am reflecting on my thoughts about what I did. It was an honest mistake. I am a human with flaws. I made a mistake but Allah fated it to happen. It was meant to happen to me. This trial is premade for me, and I have to be redha with what happened. Nothing happen without a reason.. I may not see it now, but InsyaAllah sooner or later I will know..

I trust in Allah's plans. I am grateful for all the things He had given me..

Ya Allah, I am Your servant.. I trust in You and I pray thst You give me strength in going through this phase..

Bazliah you have to be strong OK.. You have to move forward and have tawakkal in Allah.. Your job is a high risk one.. You have to pray that Allah protects you from all pitfalls.. You have to believe that Allah will help you.. He sent you trials but He will never leave you to face it on your own.. HE LOVES YOU AND HE WANTS THE BEST OUT OF YOU.. SO DON'T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF, BECAUSE ALLAH WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU!!!!!!

Paediatrics

(this was written during my Paeds rotation as a HO)  

Paeds is one of the toughest posting for me. The workload is crazy and never ending. It's stressful because anything that you do wrong involves a tiny being. And there's the parents who can be very demanding and rude.

Khalid started walking during my first week of tagging, which I felt really bad because I wasn't there. And the subsequent weeks after that, even after tagging period I still go back at 9pm and above. A couple of time I drive home crying because it is just too much on me.

I really hope to finish this posting as soon as I can and not to come back even to float as an MO.

Too much working time, less family time is not me. My boy is my priority.

But Allah is fair to me. Whenever I prayed and asked for less workload, He always made it easy for me.. That I am very thankful..

I am already 1 month plus in paeds, passed my nrp theory. Soon is assessment for nrp practical. Sigh..

Stay strong bazliah.

Of being a Mom

 

It is tricky being a working mom. Because its a balancing act. Juggle all together, the work, the baby, the chores, the me-time, etc. Sometimes it comes around, sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes you feel good, sometimes you just feel like poop.

Guilt is my shadow. At being the mommy part. Well I AM a first time mommy, so you have to give me excuse for that. But the guilt war in my head just keep going on and on like a vicious cycle.

I'm not feeding him enough, not feeding him the right food, not enough quality time, should have bought him more toys/books, should have not let him watch too much tv/youtube videos, should not have left him at the babysitter to have me-time, etc etc!

And I am so glad to know most mommies out there do feel guilty. About just everything!!

And in the amidst of my overwhelming feelings, I came across this beautiful writing by Prof Madya Dr Sharifah Hayaati in her book 'Bidadari'.

Very simple theory that she pointed out: reliance on Allah. Tawakkal. We have to accept that we all have limited capabilities. Accept that things will not be perfect. And because of that, we need to put things in the hands of Allah. After giving our very best in every situation of course.

So in situation of guilt, put things in perspective and pray to Allah to give you the peace of mind.

She also pointed out the need to have a strong rapport with Allah swt. We want our children to be committed Muslims, with good characters. But how are we to achieve that, if we ourselves are not what we want them to be?

I am struggling with my spirituality. I am fighting an unseen battle with myself, my own nafs. I am not a perfect Muslim, but I used to be very committed. Doing dakwah and going against all odds for the sake of being a committed Muslim.

So now I am at square one, discovering myself again. I missed my old self, I really do. I missed having private moments with Allah and praying to Him and just talking to Him and feeling Him really close to me. I want to go back to my old self.

So going back to being a mom.. I hope I can be a good Muslim, so that I can be an example to my son. I want him to be a committed Muslim with good character. InsyaAllah.

So guilt please go away. Tawakkal please come in

Resuscitation

 

I used to be so good at blogging. But then I stopped writing. No more penning reflections. And I regretted it. Now I am missing it.

Almost two years I started working as a doctor. And everyday I never failed feeling like a robot. Emptiness is always there. I no longer know what am I going after in this life.

I am bored of the temporary highs. Stress at work just made me into this person (or should I say robot) who turns up to work, coming back, watch movies/eat out at fancy diners and then repeat.

I need purpose. I need guidance. I need something meaningful to fill up this void. I need resuscitation!

Revisiting this blog brings so much of emotions. Mixed feelings. Not all of them gives me a good feeling. Anyhow, the experiences in the past had shaped who I am today and I feel greatful for that. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah, for guiding me all the way. 

It is time to look forward and hope for the best. 

Aku Akhwat Bukan Malaikat

Aku akhwat bukan malaikat

Perlukan kata2 penguat utk terus tsabat

Aku tak selalu kuat 

Kdg langkahku tersekat

Byk lagi tggjwb tak terbuat

Aku akhwat bukan malaikat

Pnya jiwa dan perasaan yg tersirat

Kdg tak tertahan air mataku menghujan lebat

Aku rasa berat 

I feel like telling some people 'please stop that'

Aku akhwat bukan malaikat

Aku mahu katakan kepada kamu yg 

Aku akhwat bukan malaikat

Jangan anggap aku perfect

Lamanya aku di jalan dakwah tak bermakna aku lebih sempurna

Kerana

Aku akhwat bukan malaikat

Aku punya kelemahan

Aku punya hati dan emosi

Jangan anggap aku seperti tiada perasaan

Like telling me 'you should have known that'

It hurts me really bad

Kerana

Aku akhwat bukan malaikat.

Wahai diri

Kerana kau akhwat bukan malaikat

Allah tahu kau kuat 

Iman dan taqwa kau itu azimat

Jaga ketat2

Ujian2 yg Dia berikan, you have to accept that

Yes kau akhwat bukan malaikat

Sbb tu Allah ckp 'Laa yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus'aha' - bear in mind that. 

Helpless

Salam wbt. whoever and wherever you are, may Allah SWT protect you in the contentment of iman insyaAllah. Subhanallah, i have been abandoning writing for quite some time and what triggered me to write this post is a feeling of wanting to reflect my iman with regards to what is happening to Our Sacred Land, Palestine.

As i am tapping my fingers onto this keyboard, Palestinian casualties are continuously escalating and nothing is stopping Israel from bombarding Gaza with their merciless missiles. ironically it started happening on Muharram 1, the meaningful date when our Prophet made the historical exodus, which liberated Meccan Muslims from the oppression of the Meccan Kufr.  I followed the news on BBC everyday and my heart just can't take this...violent, inhumane, brutal situation in Gaza. Astaghfirullah..

what is going to happen after this and what is the fate of the Palestinian land, we can never predict and Subhanallah, what a helpless feeling this is. facebook news feed is continuously flooded with pictures and comments condemning Israel as well as the companies and organisations which support it. most of the comments were about boycotting McD, one of the major supporter of Israel and its ruthless acts.

i believe all this happens for a reason. Allah SWT allowed this to happen to the Muslims for a reason. we have billions of Muslims around the world and Islam is the fastest growing religion today. and yet, this does not change the fate of the Muslims in some parts of the world today. oppressed, killed, abandoned and banished. just look at the fate of Muslim Rohingyas, the Syrians, the Somalis, the Palestinians.

something is definitely not right here and there is a message behind these calamities. we know that Allah will send His Help for the Muslims in times of need, just like He did with the 313 Ahlul Badr. we know that in the past, the Muslims were always outnumbered in battles against the Kufr but we always won because number is not a factor, iman is. but in this 21st century we do not see any hope of reviving this ummah. there is too many holes to cover, too many mistakes done and too many things that are not quite settled. and it all comes down to the quality of a Muslim individual.

a Muslim individual is an important unit for this ummah in order to lobby for a greater change. the fate of our religion lies in EACH one of us. we are too far from being a true Muslim because we had abandoned the ways of Rasulullah SAW and his teachings. so this is our problem. we are too caught up with the Gangnam-style music, Justin Bieber, Hollywood movies and also spending money on McD. i cannot emphasize this enough, my dear Muslim friends.  where is our pride of being a Muslim?

so let's pull out our pride that has been so long buried. buried by the rubble of Jahiliyah. the pride of being a Muslim has always been its relationship with his Creator. when the bond is tighter the strength of a Muslim is greater. thus when we have Muslim individuals with substance, we will discover that Allah SWT will be our wali (protector) at all times and we can never be oppressed or violated if we have Allah as our sole Protector insyaAllah..

Let's make lots of dua and may Allah made us among the people of substance for this blessed Deen insyaAllah..Ameen Ya Rabb!!

Allah Sangat Menyayangimu, Percayalah

Raining outside,
At the brink of breaking down.
Reality does hurt.
So this is how it feels to be helpless.
Astaghfirullahalazim.
At one moment I let denial seep in.
Gloom follows and,
I swear it almost suffocates me.
How it shook me.
Ya Allah how it shook me off my faith..
of You.

Sadness makes us human.

Feeling helpless showed that we are in need.
To trust in Allah SWT in what He has determined
Is a gift.
To be able to reason His decisions
Is a blessing.

"Allah sgt sayangkan kamu,"
"Sifat org yg mengingati Allah kan, tenang..?"
"Allah menghantar ujian utk melengkapkan kita.."

"Sudahkan kita cukup mujahadah?"

"Sudahkan kita cukup bersabar?"

"Sudahkan kita cukup tawakkal pd Nya?"

"Sesungguhnya usaha kita tidak memberi kesan pun pada natijah.." 

With hardship there is ease.

Apa bandingannya kasih Allah SWT.

Tak ada. 

Apa ertinya hidup tanpa Dia.

Ujian tanda Allah melihat diri ini.

Yang sangat kecil dan bergelumang dosa

Walaupun payah, susah, perit.

Allah kan ada.

"Allah sgt sayangkan kamu,"


"Dan apabila hamba-hambaKu bertanya kepadamu mengenai Aku maka (beritahu kepada mereka): sesungguhnya Aku (Allah) sentiasa hampir (kepada mereka); Aku perkenankan permohonan orang yang berdoa apabila ia berdoa kepadaKu. Maka hendaklah mereka menyahut seruanku (dengan mematuhi perintahKu), dan hendaklah mereka beriman kepadaKu supaya mereka menjadi baik serta betul," (al-Baqarah:186)

Untuk seorang ukhti yg dikasihi fillah, you know who you are. Ketahuilah janji Allah itu benar dan ketahuilah Allah mendengar setiap rintihanmu...kerana Allah sangat menyayangimu. Really He does, just...believe this..

Wallahu alam

You will be fine

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, Peace and Blessings be upon him and his household..

Salam alayk. It has been a while :) I just lose the interest in writing. Words don't describe me best i figured. When I looked at the title of this blog and I tried recalling why did i chose this title. What is the 'Ultimate Panacea'?  'Panacea' is a Greek word. In direct translation, it means, the prominent cure. I like the title because it gives this blog an element of healing. Well at least to me it does. 


So what is the 'Ultimate Panacea'. When there are too many problems, too many unanswered questions, too many things to consider, too many things that you regret, like you're in this deep void..there has to be an ultimate panacea. Allah tak akan datangkan masalah2 di dunia ini tanpa memberi petunjuk bagaimana kita nak meleraikannya. 
So what is the Ultimate Panacea. 

"When I am ill, it is He who heals," (Quran) 

Ups and downs, are something that we all have to face in life. You will not appreciate strength if you  never feel weak. You will not value contentment if you never feel distressed. You will never appreciate togetherness until you are alone. You will not value life, until you are dead. 


Humans are the best of Allah's creation, Ahsani Taqwim. Why are we Ahsani Taqwim is that there is this concealed potential and strengths that we have in us but we never knew it's there. Until we face certain difficulties in life. It's similar to having a spring in front of us, we don't know the amount of potential energy stored in its stringiness until we put it to test. 


Weakness completes us. Failure makes you limp and cry and..stupefied. But it gives you this unexplainable strength to get up and make things right. "Bila jatuh, bangun balik," Mama used to say. 

"In every tear, there is where..He is there," (Sami Yusuf)

"When I am ill, it is He who cures me," (Quran)

"Dan janganlah kamu merasa lemah atau bersedih hati, sbb kamu paling tinggi darjatnya jika kamu org yg beriman," (Ali Imran:139)

Failures make us human. Humans are Ahsani Taqwim. To be an Ahsani Taqwim, you have to unleash and use up the potential and strengths stored in you. And this will not happen unless you are tested. Too many wrongs to be rectified, too many holes to be covered, too many bruises to be healed.  Hakikatnya, untuk menjadi sebaik-baik ciptaan Allah, manusia akan diuji. Ini hakikat. Hakikat yang pahit,tetapi sebenarnya menyembuhkan. It heals us. It makes us an Ahsani Taqwim. To be great there has to be a price. 

"Dan Kami pasti menguji kamu dgn sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa dan buah-buahan. Dan sampaikanlah berita gembira kpd org yang sabar. Iaitu apabila ditimpa musibah mereka berkata 'Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun'" (Al-Baqarah: 155)

Why is it after we are being told by our Lord that we are going to be tested with difficult situations, He said that give away good news to the people of Sabirin? 


So what is the 'Ultimate Panacea'. That is for you to answer.


For me, patience is the 'Ultimate Panacea'. It heals, mends, cures. Kesabaran suatu pengubat yang tak akan kita dapat di mana2, kecuali dalam hati orang2 yg redha dan tawakkal sepenuhnya pada ketentuan dan ketetapanNya. Allahu Akbar. 

"With difficulties, there is ease," (al-Insyirah). 

Make believe that and you will be fine. Really.


Wallahu A'alam. 

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, Peace and Blessings be upon him and his household...

"And if any strive (with might and main), they do so for their own souls: for Allah is free of all needs from all creation," (Ankabut:6)



I just.. can't

Placing my hands on the keyboard...

Looking far out the window...

Trying to ignore the noise coming from a concert down the apartment...

Trying to put my feelings into words..

Trying..

Ok, here goes..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..In the name of Allah the Most Gracious, Most Merciful..Peace and blessings to the beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW and the ahlul bait..

And whoever desires the Hereafter and strives for it, with the necessary effort due for it (i.e. do righteous deeds of Allah's Obedience) while he is a believer (in the Oneness of Allah Islamic Monotheism), then such are the ones whose striving shall be appreciated, thanked and rewarded (by Allah).  (al-Isra':19)

Ya Allah, please don't test me with an obstacle that i can't overcome..

Placing my hands on the keyboard...

Looking far out the window...

Trying to ignore the noise coming from a concert down the apartment...

Trying to put my feelings into words..

Trying.. 

I just.....can't..Ya Allah..

Confession

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, Peace and Blessings be upon him and his household

Dear Heart,

I have not been keeping in touch with you for some time...

I have to admit that..

Listen..

I'm sorry, sincerely and with pure remorse..

I'm not sure what has gotten into me..

You made me promise that I would care for you..

Feed you, love you, protect you..

You made me promise to fight to defend you..

From enemies and foes..

They never stop attempting to deceive me..

I was determined, not to let my guard down! (At first..)

But you know what?

Weariness engulfed me, tiredness took control of me..

Suddenly I just felt so...

Hopeless

Meaningless..

I just felt so..lost..

So I just let time pass me by..

I'd rather be in the shade than work under the scorching hot sun..

Enjoy the leisure..

Eating sweet grapes and later drain my throat with cold water..

Feeling of freedom only comes once in a while..

Lalala....

Wait a minute..

This scenario..

It somehow feels familiar, I read it somewhere I'm sure..

Oh yes! It's the story of Kaab bin Malik!

Recounted by Allah SWT Himself in the Book!

What happened to him?

Kaab bin Malik was a mockery among the Muslims at that time..

For his reluctance in merging with the saff of the mujahideen..

The willingness to fight for Islam just slipped away from him..

Replaced by sweet content..

He'd rather be in the shade than march under the scorching hot sun..

Enjoy the leisure..

Eating sweet grapes and later drain his throat with cold water..

Afterall..

Feeling of freedom only comes once in a while..

"Don't  take after Kaab bin Malik..He was a lesson to the Muslims,

To not be deceived by the contentment of the Dunya...

His tale was commemorated in the Quran for a reason,"

A sister told in a daurah..

"Kaab was later isolated by the Muslims and Rasulullah himself.

During the agonizing period of isolation,

Kaab was remorseful and desperate for acceptance..

But, Allah wasn't called ar-Rahman, ar-Rahim without a reason.

Kaab was granted forgiveness eventually

And he learnt his lesson..

Which is: Never let your nafs cloud your main purpose in life. 

Life is a battle.

You know it is, if a life do MEAN sth to you.."

Dear Allah, 

Help us stand firm on the rightful path..

Help us withstand any obstacles that you sent in our ways..

And You are not called ar-Rahman, ar-Rahim without a reason...

Please..

Help us to be istiqamah in this life..

Comfort Zone

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, Peace and Blessings be upon him and his household

Updates: Salam everyone. May Allah bless us with contentment with this Deen, at this very moment insyaAllah. It has been a month since i came back to Malaysia for summer break, Alhamdulillah. It feels good to be back again, indeed it's a gift. It's a gift to be among beloved friends and family, and it is also a test of how far you could sustain your iman, now that you are in that 'comfortable' zone. It's tough. No pressure, no exams, no assignments, just the right time to be relaxed. 

But, for those who value the worth of time, it is no halt for pursuit of knowledge. There are so many things about the Deen that we are obscured of. The pertinence of pursuing knowledge of the Deen, at this very era is essential. We are the chains that link the previous generation to the next. We have that obligation to unfold and undo the misconceptions about Islam to the coming generations, so that they are in knowledge of their blessed Deen, insyaAllah. This reminder is especially for me and you, insyaAllah. May Allah guide us to the rightful path (1:6)

Reading the newspaper these days is not as pleasant. Almost at every pages, we are displayed with an image of a morally corrupted and a callous society. A special attention is needed towards the quality of the youths today. There is an obvious decadence among our youths. Who is to be blamed? Gone are the youths who think of others before themselves, who respect the elderly, who help the poor and weak, who strive for success in Dunya and Akhirah..The responsibility of amending this situation lies on every person within the society. I think everyone should be held accountable for the bad turnouts of the youths today.The solution of all social ills, always remain with Islam.

When realising that the environment surrounding us is not of a conducive environment(biah) to be able to fully execute your daily practices and mutabaah, there is a need to renew our intentions every now and then. There is also a serious need to do zikr whenever possible. For Allah reminded us in the Quran, that He encourages us to find ways or means (wasilah), in order to enrich our souls with the remembrance of Allah (al-Maidah:35), (ar-Ra'd:28).

I have to be honest, to suggest is much easier than to enact. :(  A sister once asked me, quite innocently, "Until when do we have to mujahadah..? Is there an end to this?" I looked down, not knowing how to reply.I can't really answer a query that only you yourself could answer. Tepuk dada, tanya iman.

As a conclusion, it dawned on me that, it all comes down to you and your effort at the end of the day. You are the pilot of your own life. It was depicted that in Surah as-Shams, that Allah presented to us, two 'paths' to follow. The path to corruption, or purification. The choice is ours to make, and Allah had already foretold, the consequences of respective choices. Wallahu a'alam. 

Surah as-Shams:

8. Then He showed him what is wrong for him and what is right for him;
9. Indeed he succeeds who purifies his ownself (i.e. obeys and performs all that Allah ordered, by following the true Faith of Islamic Monotheism and by doing righteous good deeds).
10. And indeed he fails who corrupts his ownself (i.e. disobeys what Allah has ordered by rejecting the true Faith of Islamic Monotheism or by following polytheism, etc. or by doing every kind of evil wicked deeds).

Do you trust Him?

In The Name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, peace and blesssings be upon him and his Household (Ahlul Bayt)

Updates: Assalamualaikum. kaif haluk? it is the busiest time of the semester, assignments cropping up, with just four weeks away from finals. the right time to quickly recharge, spiritually and mentally..InsyaAllah. For the ultimate panacea for all ills and weariness, (for true believers) is contained within the words of Allah, that is the Quran.

O mankind! There has come to you a good advice from your Lord (i.e. the Qur'an, ordering all that is good and forbidding all that is evil), and a healing for that (disease of ignorance, doubt, hypocrisy and differences, etc.) in your breasts, - a guidance and a mercy (explaining lawful and unlawful things, etc.) for the believers. (Yunus:57) 

".... Verily, in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest" (ar-Ra'd:28)

In pursuing our interests in this dunya, dear brothers and sisters, never forget that we will eventually return to Allah. This life is short. So the discomforts that you are tested with, is only temporary. If you are true in wanting to attain Allah's pleasure, who knows it better than Allah? We are all being tested according to our respective capabilities. InsyaAllah, He knows best.

Narrated from Aishah r.a.: "No calamity befalls a Muslim but that Allah expiates some of his sins because of it, even though it were the prick he receives from a thorn," (Sahih Bukhari)

May Allah made us among the people who attain success, both in the world and hereafter, insyaAllah!

From Surah al-Qasas:

 7. And We inspired the mother of Musa (Moses), (saying): "Suckle him [Musa (Moses)], but when you fear for him, then cast him into the river and fear not, nor grieve. Verily! We shall bring him back to you, and shall make him one of (Our) Messengers."

8. Then the household of Fir'aun (Pharaoh) picked him up, that he might become for them an enemy and a (cause of) grief. Verily! Fir'aun (Pharaoh), Haman and their hosts were sinners.

9. And the wife of Fir'aun (Pharaoh) said: "A comfort of the eye for me and for you. Kill him not, perhaps he may be of benefit to us, or we may adopt him as a son." And they perceive not (the result of that).

10. And the heart of the mother of Musa (Moses) became empty [from every thought, except the thought of Musa (Moses)]. She was very near to disclose his (case, i.e. the child is her son), had We not strengthened her heart (with Faith), so that she might remain as one of the believers.

11. And she said to his [Musa's (Moses)] sister: "Follow him." So she (his sister) watched him from a far place secretly, while they perceived not.

12. And We had already forbidden (other) foster suckling mothers for him, until she (his sister came up and) said: "Shall I direct you to a household who will rear him for you, and sincerely they will look after him in a good manner?"

13. So did We restore him to his mother, that she might be delighted, and that she might not grieve, and that she might know that the Promise of Allah is true. But most of them know not.

The Quran is indeed a form of blessing and mercy to mankind. No matter how many times we read it, there is always something new to be learnt from it..MasyaAllah. I used to read the translations of the Quran really fast, without taking the time to decipher the underlying meanings of them =(. Well, if you are reading through a medical prescription specifically written for you, you wouldn't rush through it without understanding it, would you? You would want to take some time reading and maybe do some googling of the medications prescribed. Because health is something dear to you =) The Quran is like a prescription by Allah to cure all kinds of ills, mostly related to the soul. If iman is something dear to you, you would want to preserve it according to what is recommended in the Quran al-Karim, insyaAllah.


I was reading over the translation above, of Surah al-Qasas, verse 7 to 13, and I wanted to share a few thoughts of how these verses relate to my current situation, insyaAllah. The verses above recount to us of the story of Musa a.s, of how his mother decided to send him adrift in the river, to save him from being killed by the Pharaoh at that time. All male babies were commanded to be killed, for selfish reasons of the Pharaoh. The river drifted Musa a.s towards the palace of the Pharaoh, and his wife found the baby. This all happened by Allah's will, and He is indeed the Best Planner. 

Musa's mother knew this and she feared the worst, knowing that her baby was in the hands of the Pharaoh's wife! They could do anything to him. Note Allah related a short happening of how the mother of Musa a.s, nearly disclosed that Musa was indeed her son, when she hardly could contain her fear of what could happen to Musa a.s. In short, her tawakkal towards Allah was being tested.  And she could have given way, if she was not strengthened by her faith. In verse 13, as a result of her being patient and firm, by Allah's willing, she was returned her son.

There is a significant lesson to be learnt in this short event. a simple event but an important message, insyaAllah. It is pertaining tawakkal (reliance) upon Allah, in whatever that we do. When we rely upon Allah, it means that we are surrendering our fate wholeheartedly to Allah (that is, after you've done your best in that particular situation).

It is pertinent that we be patient and have positive thoughts of Allah. He promised in the Quran that He will never put a trial too hard on us. (al-Baqarah:286)  It is the principle of tawakkal (acceptance) that complements one's iman, insyaAllah (al-Anfal:2). When Allah tests us with a trial, He will look upon our reactions. If we are patient in facing the trials, He promised us many great returns, insyaAllah. (al-Mukminun: 111)

Humans are not perfect beings. We were created imperfect and flawed. It is with the help and assistance of Allah that we made it throughout life. In work, studies, job interviews, anything. (Luqman: 22) Even in the pursuit of fortifying our iman, it is never relied on our efforts alone. =)

My trials may be different from yours, but I believe that we are being tested in accordance to our abilities and strengths, insyaAllah. Just be strong, and know your grounds and always know the prime intentions of your actions. If  you've got a pure intention, insyaAllah..He will eventually reward you, through ways that you couldnt even think of =) (at-Talaq:3)

Say: "O 'Ibadi (My slaves) who have transgressed against themselves (by committing evil deeds and sins)! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah, verily Allah forgives all sins. Truly, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. (az-Zumar:53)

 Wallahu a'alam

Summer Pit Stop!!

Assalamualaikum brothers and sisters,

This summer, AUSIS (Australian and New Zealand Students' Islamic Society) brings you The Summer Pit Stop!!

The details are as shown. 

If interested, please contact the numbers above. 

Let's fill this summer with activities that could fortify our iman from our nafs, insyaAllah..

May Allah make our effort of enriching our souls, worthy for the Akhirah insyaAllah...

Brothers and Sisters, 

Let us be the people of taqwa who bear the religion with pride insyaAllah..

The destiny of this ummah lies with its youth..masyaAllah..

"March forth, whether you are light (being healthy, young and wealthy) or heavy (being ill, old and poor), strive hard with your wealth and your lives in the Cause of Allah. This is better for you, if you but knew" (at-Tawbah:41)

Sayonara Jahiliyah

In The Name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, peace and blesssings be upon him and his Household (Ahlul Bayt)

Updates: Salam everyone. Kaif haluk? Hopefully everyone is in the best health and most importantly the best of iman insyaAllah. It is the second week of the second semester. the subjects are getting more baffling and perplexing, not surprising. But after the first semester i found myself more collected, Alhamdulillah. (93:4) I passed my subjects in the first sem and InsyaAllah i can do it again.

oh yeah, ramadhan is finally coming! couldn't be any more happier =) Ahlan wasahlan ya ramadhan! May this holy month be a meaningful one, as in we satiate ourselves with ibadah that could elevate ourselves in His Sight, InsyaAllah (qiam, tarawih, reciting quran, supplication, etc). Equipping ourselves with these strengths, may it fortify us from our nafs and jahiliyah, insyaAllah..=D

Humans are weak beings. we have desires and wants, and sometimes all we want to do is indulge and spoil ourselves rotten. most of the time, these 'things' that we like is not in favor of Allah. Examples: spending too much time on fb, wasting time, bad talk others, wasting money on irrelevant things, maksiat, etc. These, to be blatant, are jahiliyah. I am referring to myself, especially. It feels so pathetic and pitiful to be enslaved by all these worldly things (couldn't be any more truthful to myself). When you actually know that they don't really benefit you in world or Hereafter. Astaghfirullah...

Say (O Muhammad ): "Shall We tell you the greatest losers in respect of (their) deeds?

"Those whose efforts have been wasted in this life while they thought that they were acquiring good by their deeds!" (al-Kahf:103-104)

Whatever is with you, will be exhausted, and whatever with Allah (of good deeds) will remain. And those who are patient, We will certainly pay them a reward in proportion to the best of what they used to do (an-Nahl:96)

whatever that is worldly, will perish. And what is favourable in Allah's sight will remain. therefore, it is incumbent to expend our time and energy for things that will be of pertinence to us in the Hereafter, that is: our ibadah and others that bring pleasure to Allah. 

Allah had generously mentioned in the Quran, of ways to enrich our souls:

Verily, the rising by night (for Tahajjud prayer) is very hard and most potent and good for governing (the soul), and most suitable for (understanding) the Word (of Allah). (al-Muzammil:6)

Indeed whosoever purifies himself (by avoiding polytheism and accepting Islamic Monotheism) shall achieve success,

And remembers (glorifies) the Name of his Lord (worships none but Allah), and prays (five compulsory prayers and Nawafil additional prayers). (al-A'la:14-15)

And your Lord said: "Invoke Me, [i.e. believe in My Oneness (Islamic Monotheism)] (and ask Me for anything) I will respond to your (invocation). Verily! Those who scorn My worship [i.e. do not invoke Me, and do not believe in My Oneness, (Islamic Monotheism)] they will surely enter Hell in humiliation!"(al-Mu'min:60)

Whatever that you perform in the name of Allah, is for your own good really. It is for your own purification and goodness, insyaAllah. For He said:

And whosoever strives, he strives only for himself. Verily, Allah is free of all wants from the 'Alamin (mankind, jinns, and all that exists). (al-Ankabut:6)

Whosoever does righteous good deed it is for (the benefit of) his ownself, and whosoever does evil, it is against his ownself, and your Lord is not at all unjust to (His) slaves. (al-Fussilat:46)

If you feel you don't have the inner strength to be istiqamah in your ibadah, there is always Allah to guide you. With sincerity, invoke His Help and pray for His Guidance. InsyaAllah, He will be more than willing to quench your needs.

And if an evil whisper from Shaitan (Satan) tries to turn you away (O Muhammad ) (from doing good, etc.), then seek refuge in Allah. Verily, He is the All-Hearer, the All-Knower.(Fussilat:36)

O mankind! it is you who stand in need of Allah, but Allah is Rich (Free of all wants and needs), Worthy of all praise.(Fatir:15)

May Allah bless us with the best of iman, may He accept our repentances, may He accept our deeds, insyaAllah. 

May He guide us away from our jahiliyah and whatever that led us astray.

Sayonara Jahiliyah.


InsyaAllah..

Stop. And look back.

In The Name of Allah, Most Gracious Most Merciful...

Holy Prophet Muhammad, peace and blesssings be upon him and his Household (Ahlul Bayt)

 

 

And surely, We shall try you till We test those who strive hard (for the Cause of Allah) and the patient ones, and We shall test your facts (i.e. the one who is a liar, and the one who is truthful).(47:31)

Updates: Salam everyone. Kaif haluk? Hopefully everyone is in the best of health and most importantly the best of iman. I finished my exam just last night, Alhamdulillah.. now that there's free time, i've GOT to plan wisely. there should be things to accomplish. some good and beneficial stuffs to look forward to..insyaAllah. the exams were alright insyaAllah. I have to admit feeling anxious of the results. Nevertheless, Allah is the Best Planner and I trust Him to determine what is to become of my life insyaAllah. Astaghfirullahalazim..And aseef (sorry) for leaving this blog for quite some time. Had been very busy with studies =(

after coursing through my first semester in Bachelor of Medicine/Surgery, being fed profusely with awfully complex and intricate knowledge of the human body, i came to a conclusion. humans are ungrateful and ignorant. they take things in life for granted and they complain a lot too. WE are ignorant for always forgetting that everything that we own is not truly OURS. we are created by A Great Creator, who is also Most Giving, and Most Forgiving.

O man! What has made you careless concerning your Lord, the Most Generous? (82:6)

Who created you, fashioned you perfectly, and gave you due proportion;(82:7)

It is sufficent to just observe ourselves. Have you ever wonder how your fingers could precisely apply the right force, for you to move something? To grip or reach something? To turn a page of a book perhaps? Have you ever wonder what the hand is consisted of? The nerves and vessels that supply the interwoven muscles in the hand? After knowing these complexities, i come to appreciate the littlest things. like how my fingernails are stuck to the end of each fingers. now that, is just what is visible to the eye. Subhanallah!

i learnt to appreciate and to take things easy as they go. i learnt that being impulsive is bad. setting unrealistic goals is frustrating. being judgemental is unfair. being sensible is a must. lending a hand is obligatory. time should be managed more efficiently. set my priorities right. health is to be catered for, always. and most importantly, toughening my reliance and trust on Allah Taala. now you can see how badly i need to brush up on my 10 Muwasaffat Tarbiyyah..huhu insyaAllah.

Studying Medicine, here in Auckland, in my perspective is not just about gaining knowledge, meeting people of different cultures, and definitely not just about seeing and visiting places. that is just what's on the surface. the relations, of these to the Creator is too immense. Too great, MasyaAllah i am awed. the experiences that tagged along my journey would forever be treasured. For I believe everything, from the new friendships that i made, to the exam questions that i answered has its relation to what Allah has fated for me to receive, insyaAllah...=)

So far so good. Alhamdulillah. I can only feel so, whenever i stop. And look back. 

Then only I see, how Allah is So Great at determining the course of my life. How can i not, when He was the one who created me, who knows me, and fix the fingernails to the end of my fingers...

Wallahu a'alam..

Hard Rock Hearts

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Updates: Salam everyone. Kaif haluk? May we find ourselves in the best of health and most importantly in the best of iman. it's funny how we keep forgetting what is important and tend to ace for something that has been pre-arranged for us. it's just hilarious how we tend to get upset over small and insignificant matters. we keep losing track of the bigger picture of things. there are too many things that keep obstructing our views of what is relevant and what is not. fortunately, we have a Guardian, who always, and never failed to remind us when we start to go astray. Allah has His Ways of teaching and guiding us, in competence to our abilities and endurance. Ya Allah, for all the bad thoughts i have of you, please forgive me. Astaghfirullahalazim...please guide me in every single step i take...Amin.

Has not the time come for the hearts of those who believe (in the Oneness of Allah - Islamic Monotheism) to be affected by Allah's Reminder (this Qur'an), and that which has been revealed of the truth, lest they become as those who received the Scripture [the Taurat (Torah) and the Injeel (Gospel)] before, and the term was prolonged for them and so their hearts were hardened? And many of them were Fasiqun (rebellious, disobedient to Allah). (57:16)

Belum sampaikah lagi masanya bagi orang-orang yang beriman, untuk khusyuk hati mereka mematuhi peringatan dan pengajaran Allah serta mematuhi kebenaran (Al-Quran) yang diturunkan (kepada mereka)? Dan janganlah pula mereka menjadi seperti orang-orang yang telah diberikan Kitab sebelum mereka, setelah orang-orang itu melalui masa yang lanjut maka hati mereka menjadi keras, dan banyak di antaranya orang-orang yang fasik – derhaka. (57:16)

Allah addressed this ayah to the people who believe in the oneness of Allah, in other words the people of iman. Allah questioned us, the people of iman, why have we taken His reminder (the Quran) for granted. Why have we neglected the warnings in the Quran? When is the time for us to be serious of the teachings in the Quran? This is a reminder for Muslims to be serious about the warnings of Allah. Allah compared the Muslims to the people of the Book (Ahlul Kitab), who willed their hearts to become hardened by not obeying Allah's orders. 

This means, there is absolute possibility that we Muslims tend to allow our hearts and minds to be invaded by matters that is not of pertinence to Allah, that our hearts could be hardened by them. So what happens when the hearts are hardened? Basically we do not feel guilty for disobeying Allah, we tend to take for granted what is important in the religion, and we may not be affected anymore by the words in the Quran. Naudzubillahi min zalik..=( May Allah save you and I from all of these. May we apply istiqamah in our lives, so that we could ace for the pleasures of Allah, and avoid His Wrath.    

But the saying goes, humans tend to err. We sometimes tend to sin without realising. Nobody is devoid of making mistakes, except Rasulullah and the Messengers before him. So what does Allah has to say for this? MAsyaAllah..the following ayah is very beautiful. He said:

Know that Allah gives life to the earth after its death! Indeed We have made clear the Ayat (proofs, evidences, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.) to you, if you but understand. (57:17)

Ketahuilah kamu, bahawa Allah menghidupkan bumi sesudah matinya; sesungguhnya Kami telah menjelaskan kepada kamu keterangan-keterangan dan bukti, supaya kamu memahaminya (57:17)

Allah has the supremacy to give life to waht is dead! What does this means? If He could give life to what is already dead, is it likely that He could give 'life' to a 'dead' heart? Or in other words, is it possible that He could treat our hardened hearts? MasyaAllah...of course He can!  

Hence, when we realised that we had wronged Allah, the immediate thing to do is: invoke Him for His Help and Assistance to get us back on the right tracks. Allah is Most Forgiving, Most Gracious. He accepted us for our weaknesses and flaws, MasyaAllah..All we have to do is just raise our hands and sincerely ask for His Forgiveness. And He would be more than willing to accept our repentance. Is that too much to ask?

Wallahu a'alam...